Well on Sunday. I had some very strange signs… I guess they are signs...I do not know I’ll just sound crazy to everybody..... So I’ll just tell you what happened.
After months of not going to church, something in my gut had been telling me to go …I had to get there…at the time I do not know why but I knew I just had to go.
While sitting there in the church listening to the sermon about a subject I had been struggling with in my day to day life for the last few months. I realized the very moment I was looking at. The minister …what he was saying word for word… what he was wearing… where he was standing……how he gestured.
I had a dream of him doing and saying those exact things a few days earlier….So much so it was to the point I knew what he was going to say next. It lasted about ten minutes.
I was flabbergasted.
So after crying and listening to the rest of the sermon we left church. We went about our day. I must have looked a wreck… Cameron kept asking me what was wrong. I had told him about the dream. I do not know if he understood how muchit effected me. I have had the odd dream before of dreaming and instance but usually only a few seconds and never THAT clearly, usually more of a "remembering after the fact" instead of realizing while it was still happenng. I am not sure why that had happened and that was partly why I was SOOO moved.
Out to my mom’s to get Nigel. Then out to Cameron’s Mom’s for Sunday supper and Sadie’s b-day cake. After dinner and chatting we headed home.
Now I know I have said I have had epiphanies on the way home from Surrey before, but nothing like this.
As we were driving I was watching the clouds float by…
Then I realized the clouds were looking back.
I turned to Cameron and said “look at that cloud it looks like and EYE.” He agreed and said it was almost creepy how much it looked like and eye.
The first thing I thought of was God; he was watching over me. The cloud eye opened wider then dispersed. Then a little further down the road a different cloud looked like a fish, then the same cloud turned into a whale, then it turned again into an anchor. TALK ABOUT SYMBOLIZM!!!
***********this is what I researched about those symbols copy pasted from the net************** The eye has been used to symbolize the all-seeing eye of God, and this symbol is still used today.
The fish was an early symbol of Christian faith that endures today on bumper stickers and businesses as a sign of Christian faith.
The fish is thought to have been chosen by the early Christians for several reasons:
the Greek word for
fish (ICHTUS), works nicely as an acrostic for "Jesus Christ, God's Son, Savoir"
the fish would not be an obvious Christian symbol to persecutors
Jesus' ministry is associated with fish: he chose several fishermen to be his disciples and declared he would make them "fishers of men."
It is said that during the persecution of the early church, a Christian meeting someone new would draw a single arc in the sand. If the other person was a Christian, he or she would complete the drawing of a fish with a second arc. If the second person was not a Christian, the ambiguity of the half-symbol would not reveal the first person as a Christian.
The whale Jonah, whose three days in the belly of the whale pre-figured the interval between Christ's death and Resurrection.
For most people, dreaming about
whales is a pleasant experience. These huge water dwelling mammals may be symbolic of the connection that exists between the unconscious and conscious mind. They may represent the dreamer's level of awareness, perceptiveness, and intuition. Some think that they represent our emotional power or are messengers from the spiritual realms. If the ocean waters were turbulent, and the whale in your dream was unpredictable or on the attack, considers the emotional environment in your every day life. Under such unpleasant dream circumstances, these large animals may represent overwhelming emotional or psychological issue and problem.
For the historical accuracy of Jonah from both our stand-point of faith and hope, is important as it foreshadows Christ’s own death and resurrection. Christ would not have associated the single most important event in our history (his holy resurrection) to a mere fable or fairy tale. If we are to accept the teachings of Jesus Christ, as given to us from the accounts in the Gospels – then we must accept that Jonah, being swallowed by a fish, is historical fact.
Do we serve the Lord by reasoning away His majesty? Do we serve the Lord by diminishing the importance of knowing that the Lord God makes the impossible possible? We need not see the fish to know that our faith in God’s love for us gives us hope.
The anchor is a very early Christian symbol that has been found in the catacombs. It brings together the cross and the various nautical Christian symbols (fish, boat, dolphin), and it symbolizes Christian hope in Christ.
*****************END of net pasting**********************************************What *I* felt it all means….. Well I can only give you the impressions I first had…when it all happened.
When I saw the eye I thought “I am the I am. Then I saw the eye open and it made me feel like god was telling me he was looking out for me and my family.
Then when I saw the fish it reinforced that it was god trying to talk to me…It also reminded me of sacrifice. Sometimes we have to sacrifice for the greater good.
Then when it turned into the whale I thought of the story of Johan and how there will be times it is hard to follow god, but I should do it anyway.
You know those time when the world says what is the smart thing, but you know it isn’t the right thing… but our world thinks that the smart way *IS* the right way…
Like forgiving somebody who has wronged you.The world would think you a daft by not holding a grudge and stoping them from being in your life anymore.
Then when I saw the whale turn into and anchor it made me feel like he was saying when I follow his way that he would be the anchor for me in trouble waters…He would ground me when the world is turbulent.
Reading the meanings I also feel that it may be some more insight.
I also feel he was trying to tell me my anxiety disorder has been a HUGE stumbling block in me going to church…
”these large animals may represent overwhelming emotional or psychological issue and problem.” I think he was telling me he will be my anchor through the mental turmoil my brain puts me through.
This was quite an emotional day….at least for me. But then again I’m crazy...at least to this world.
